Chapter 84: If I Disappeared... (Important, 6000 words)

  She raised her head in anger, but met Huangfu Yujie's icy and unfamiliar gaze, with a hint of bloodthirsty chill in his eyes...

  "Let go!!" Sun Qingkong stared straight at Huangfu Yu for a long time, before gritting his teeth and growling out the words.

  Huang Pu's sword-like eyebrows twisted, his perfect thin lips pursed into a cold straight line, and his deep, mysterious black eyes, after hearing her words, immediately surged up with an irrepressible anger.

  Huangfu Yu didn't let go, instead his grip on her wrist tightened, as if he was afraid that if he relaxed even a little, she would slap him again. Uncontrollably, Sun Qingkong felt the anger surging in her chest, wildly rising to the top of her head.

  This man, who loudly claims to love himself, took advantage of her trip to Korea for facial maintenance and let another woman get into his bed. He's rolling in the hay with another woman on their bed, has he ever thought about her feelings?

  What's even more outrageous is that her affair was exposed, and she still managed to fix things with the third party, and even helped the third party in front of her?

  The more he cares about it, the more he wants to maintain it, she deliberately wants to repair it.

  And in front of him, severely punish Xuan.

  Sun Qianhong's eyes turned red as she raised her other hand and slapped Su Jingya's face hard, accompanied by two fierce kicks.

  Bang!

  A crisp slap, suddenly echoed in the room, time seemed to freeze at this moment, the spacious bedroom was dead silent.

  Su Jingya covered her burning face, ignoring the pain in her abdomen that had been kicked, and frantically grabbed at clothes on the ground to cover her exposed body.

  Standing naked in front of others, especially after being dragged out of a man's bed, Su Jingya felt it was a great shame.

  She hastily grabbed her clothes and was about to put them on, but they had been torn to shreds by Huangfu Yu last night. Even if she wore them, they couldn't cover anything.

  Embracing her own body, Su Jingya shrank into the corner, staring at Sun Qingkong who had already gone mad with terror. She was so scared that tears streamed down her face. Wanting to escape, but her clothes were too thin, she could only bite her lip and look at Huangfu Yu.

  "Clear sky, enough!"

  Huang Pu Yi swiftly shook off Sun Qingkong's hand, and with a speed that left no time for concealment, he snatched the neatly stacked bath towels from the bedside cabinet and wrapped them around his waist.

  He jumped off the bed, grabbed a towel and walked in front of Su Jingya, wrapping her up.

  Sun Qingkong was pushed by Huangfu Yu with great force, and her ten-centimeter high heels slipped out from under her. She fell heavily onto the carpet, her ankle throbbing in pain. The pain made tears well up in her eyes, and when she looked up, she saw that Huangfu Yu had actually shielded Su Jingya right in front of her. Her anger caused her whole body to tremble, and her already crimson eyes suddenly shot out an even more terrifying and frightening red light.

  "Ah——!! Su Jingya, you shameless person!! You actually dared to seduce other people's men, I'm going to tear your face apart today!"

  Sun Qiankong seemed to have gone completely mad, loudly shrieking as she pounced forward, completely disregarding her own identity and image. She grabbed Su Jingya's hair, brutally and violently pulling it backwards with great force, raising her palm high before slapping it across her face.

  Su Jingya had never seen Sun Qiang so terrifying and ferocious before, she was scared pale and screamed as she dodged her palm.

  But her hair was tightly wrapped around Sun Qing's fingers, and she pulled it back with force. Her face was raised, without any resistance, allowing her to slap her several times.

  "Su Jingya, you shameless thing, you're already seducing men everywhere, now you even want to steal my man!"

  "Aren't you trying to make all the men in the world fall in love with you? What's the point of wearing clothes? Why not take them off and let them have a good look, who knows this method might be better than sleeping with each man one by one!"

  "Smelly cunt, you have no shame..."

  ……

  Sun Qinqing's eyes were red with rage, she completely lost her rationality, and slapped and pinched Su Jingya repeatedly. Feeling it was not enough, she grabbed Su Jingya's hair and slammed her head against the wall nearby.

  Huangfu Yuye saw the woman in front of him, who was completely different from her usual gentle and elegant demeanor, and felt a severe headache. He rubbed his temples and looked at the two women embracing each other, Sun Qingkong riding on Su Jingya's body, and suddenly a violent rage surged up in his heart. He stepped forward, grabbed Sun Qingkong, raised his palm and slapped her face heavily.

  Snap!!!!!!

  "Sun Qingkong, have you had enough?! You should know that I detest women who don't listen and are disobedient!" Huangfu's face turned red with rage as he bellowed loudly, his thunderous roar almost shaking the house violently.

  Huang Pu's palm, slapped with great force, Sun Qing's feet were unstable again, and she fell to the ground with a "thud". Her head buzzing, it took her a long time to come to her senses, only to realize that Huang Pu had actually slapped her.

  It's been five years and she stayed by his side for five years. He never dared to move a single finger on her, always listening to her and following her plans. But now, he actually slapped her for Su Jingya?

  Sun Qing's face was scalded by the fire, and after three seconds, five bright red finger marks appeared on her cheek. She stared straight at Huangfu Yu, crying and questioning: "You hit me? You actually hit me for her?"

  Huang Pu was also deeply shocked by his own behavior, he actually hit Sun Qingkong, hit... Lele?!

  Sun Qingkong glared at him, her big eyes brimming with tears, biting her lip. She blinked, and several teardrops fell simultaneously. She cried out in grievance: "Huangfu Yu, who's being unreasonable? Who's causing trouble? You clearly promised to love only me before, but... what are you doing now?"

  "Why is it Su Jingya? Why is it her? Don't you understand, the person I hate the most, the one I despise the most, is her? How did she treat me before, can you really forget?"

  "She killed our child and I was bedridden in hospital for a year and a half, yet you're taking her side?"

  "Are you hitting me for her today? Will you get rid of me or kill me for her in the future?"

  "Huan Huan, you've changed!!"

  "When you were young, you said that you would protect me for a lifetime, love me for a lifetime, and spoil me for a lifetime. But you... actually hit me for the sake of another woman with ulterior motives!"

  "Doesn't everything from when we were young matter to you anymore? Don't I matter to you anymore? Doesn't Lele matter to you?"

  "In that case, I'll make you regret it!"

  Sun Qiankong rushed towards Huangfu Yu, shouting loudly, then immediately got up from the ground and ran out of the bedroom without looking back.

  Huang Pu's eyes narrowed, his thin lips coldly opening: "Remember to erase all the breath that belongs to you in this room, get out of Huang Fu's courtyard! Don't think that I'm helping you today, this is just a reward for your hard work serving me last night. Su Jingya, take everything with you and get out of my world, get out of Lele's world, I don't want to see you again!"

  After finishing speaking, Huangfu didn't even turn his head and chased out.

  Su Jingya stared at the half-closed door, tears streaming down her face. Her throat felt like it was being choked by a thorn, as if she had lost her voice. She wanted to wail and scream, but not a sound could escape her lips, only a tearing pain in her chest.

  She lay weakly on the ground, hugging her battered body, and muttered softly, as if to Huangfu Yu, yet also to herself: "…I didn't go provoke you, it was clearly you... who came to provoke me!"

  "Am I really just a plaything in your heart, to be summoned when you want and kicked away when you don't? When you're happy, you tease me, but when you're not, you kick me aside!"

  "....Huan Huan, Le Le is here, Huan Huan..."

  "Why is it that everything except pain is so fleeting? The happiness I want, the joy I want, being with you, why does it all have to be so short-lived, gone in an instant?"

  "Huan Huan, I really miss going back to my childhood, when the sunshine was so radiant, Mama's smile was so kind, your arms were so warm, and I... at least had a face that you couldn't possibly mistake."

  "Huan Huan, do you really want me to disappear? Really? If I disappeared, would you... one day... be like me back then, desperately and crazily searching for you everywhere?"

  ……

  Su Jingya crouched on the cold floor, not knowing how long she had cried. Finally, she rummaged through the closet in her room and found Huangfu Yu's undershirts. She looked at the neatly stacked three piles of undershirts and couldn't help but reach out to touch them. In the end, she carefully took one from the top layer.

  Huangfu Yu's undershirt was really big, just like when she was a kid, and it looked like a dress on her.

  Yun Yi followed Huangfu Yu's instructions and brought clothes to Su Jingya, who was wearing Huangfu Yu's undershirt, as well as... his pants.

  Su Jingya's face showed no expression, but her eyes were filled with tears, which seemed to be completely beyond her control, dropping one by one.

  Yun Yi thought Su Jingya couldn't find her clothes, so she wore Huangfu Yu's clothes. She smiled and took the women's clothing forward, planning to help Su Jingya take off Huangfu Yu's shirt: "Miss Su, this is the young master's prepared clothes for you, hurry up and change!"

  However, her hand had not yet touched Su Jingya's body when she suddenly took a step back and said warily: "No need! I'm fine in this!"

  "But..." Yun Yi's gaze fell on Huang Fu Yu's undergarment, her eyes filled with unease. Didn't she know that Huang Fu Yu hated women wearing his clothes the most? Not to mention wearing them, even touching them was a capital offense, and yet...

  Su Jingya found a red silk ribbon in the room, tied it tightly around her waist, then squatted down and slowly rolled up the oversized pants. Her movements were gentle, soft, meticulous, and cautious.

  "Miss Su, are you okay? These are the young master's clothes, if..." Yuni wanted to remind her, but Su Jingya had already interrupted, "I'm fine, and I know these are his clothes. Moreover, I know that no one is allowed to touch his clothes, especially women...Yuni, this is the last time!"

  Su Jingya blinked her eyes and tears gushed down.

  "Miss Su, what do you mean by this?" Cloud Aunt didn't understand the meaning behind her words.

  Su Jingya forced a smile, but didn't know that her smile was even uglier than crying: "It doesn't matter, it's just that I probably won't be coming back here again. On the dressing table, I wrote some notes, although I know you're very familiar with Da Shao's habits, however... these are all very small and trivial matters, if there's anything you haven't noticed, please take note of them, Yun Auntie!"

  "Miss Su, don't say that, Huangfu's courtyard will always welcome you back!" Yun Shi smiled.

  Su Jingya nodded, smoothed her long black hair and bid farewell to Cloud Aunt before leaving.

  But just as she walked to the door, she saw Huangfu Yu return, and in his arms... was a woman with red and swollen eyes, who was still sobbing uncontrollably.

  She quickly lowered her eyelids, pretending not to see, and before she could take a step, Huangfu Yu's cold voice came: "Who allowed you to touch my clothes?"

  Yun Yi quickly hid the women's clothes she had prepared earlier and stepped forward to mediate: "Young Master, Miss Su is in a hurry to leave, and her clothes haven't been sent over yet, so..."

  Huangfu Yu's face looked unpleasant, but he averted his gaze and didn't look at Su Jingya again.

  Su Jingya hung her head, using all her strength to hold back tears and forcing herself not to cry in front of him. Since his heart had already been moved by another woman's tears, crying in front of him would only make him disgusted.

  She stared at her naked scream, turned around and walked downstairs, now the only thing she wanted to do was to quickly escape and thoroughly disappear from their faces.

  Huangfu Yu seemed to intentionally not let her off, she hadn't walked a few steps when his voice rose again: "Take the things that belong to you and bring them along!"

  Su Jingya was in a state of confusion, wondering if there was anything else left behind in the room. The clothes and pants that he had torn apart earlier had already been thrown away by the maid, and the room had also been cleaned up.

  However, before she could think it through thoroughly, "swish swish" two slippers flew in front of her. These two slippers were the ones that Dongfang Yan had asked the manager to fetch for her at the nightclub.

  Looking at the slippers that had fallen to the ground, Su Jingya felt a stinging pain in her eyes, she pursed her lips tightly and slowly squatted down to pick them up. However, just as she was picking up the shoes, Huang Fu Yu spoke again: "Su Jingya, I've thought it through, your existence is the greatest threat to me and Qingkong being together. The best solution for you and us is...to send you abroad. Wherever you want to go, I'll satisfy you. I'll give you a sum of money, this lifetime..."

  "It's not necessary!" Su Jingya shuddered all over after hearing his words, quickly interrupting him, her fingers white with tension as she grasped the slippers. "I'll disappear on my own and never show up again in this lifetime!"

  After finishing speaking, she quickly got up and ran downstairs.

  Her escape was desperate and desolate. The tears she had been holding back finally burst forth like a flood, pouring down uncontrollably as she turned away.

  She tightly hugged the slippers in her arms and ran away with all her might.

  Huangfu Yu, is it really that you can't wait to kick me away and rush towards your happiness with her? I've always known that your world is one that I can never reach no matter how hard I try. Your world is a glory and splendor that I can only dream of in this lifetime. I also know that your world can only accommodate those who are absolutely beautiful and luxurious, and that someone as lowly and unremarkable as me can only be a burden to you, a joke to you, and can only lower your noble status and pollute your elegant life. I am not qualified to stay in your world.

  It's me, always me with illusions in my heart, trying to use my own insignificant and worthless love to protect you, accompany you. But... at this moment I finally understand that the love between the sea and the bird is really just a sad joke, clouds and mud, heaven and earth are the unbridgeable chasm between us.

  I've had enough of waiting and struggling outside your world, I've had enough of loving you and longing for you but getting not even a slight response from you!

  So... I'm really going to leave!

  Get out of your world with the same lowliness as these slippers...

  On the street, people came and went, Su Jingya held her slippers in her arms, standing barefoot at the crossroads, looking around at the crowd staring at her with surprise and strange eyes.

  She stood at the crossroads for a long time, and the cool wind kept blowing towards her in strong gusts. She had to wrap her large shirt tightly around her body before she felt warmer.

  A coin somehow rolled over, Su Jingya stared at it for a long time, seeing no one came to pick it up, finally she picked it up, looking at the 1-yuan coin in her palm, and then turned around and walked to a nearby phone booth, putting the coin into it.

  "Hello? Hello?"

  Su Jingya listened to Wang Anran's voice, her dry eyes moistened again, and she bit her lip and whispered: "Anran, it's me!"

  "Jing Ya?" Wang An Ran almost jumped up, "Where did you run to yesterday? Dong Fang Yan was so anxious he almost killed someone! Where are you now, I'll go pick you up right away!"

  “……” Su Jingya heard her caring voice, and her emotions suddenly lost control. She burst into loud sobs, saying, "An Ran, I feel so painful, my heart hurts so much that nothing in this world can cure it anymore. Waaah... An Ran, what did I do wrong? Why is it ending up like this? I just fell in love with a man, why does it hurt so much? An Ran, I've decided, I really don't want anything anymore, I want to end everything thoroughly... I want to disappear completely...”

  Wang Anran was startled by Su Jingya's loud crying, and wanted to ask her carefully, but the phone suddenly hung up. She anxiously shouted into the phone: "Jingya? Hello? Where are you? Jingya... hello?!"

  ……

  Su Jingya held the public phone's receiver, squatting in the telephone booth and crying her heart out. The sad cries attracted passersby to stop and watch. Some kind-hearted people couldn't bear it and came forward to help her up, but Su Jingya remained sitting on the ground, covering her chest and wailing loudly...

  Sunset is the most beautiful thing in this world, before daylight disappears, it bursts into the most stunning and resplendent colors.

  Su Jingya sat on a massive rock on the beach, gazing at the horizon where a layer of fiery red sunset glow lingered, lost in thought for a long time.

  The vast ocean stretches out as far as the eye can see, blending seamlessly with the boundless sky, extending deeply and intimately towards the horizon, making it impossible to distinguish where the sea ends and the sky begins.

  The salty sea breeze blew fiercely against her, whipping up her long black hair to dance wildly in all directions.

  She sat on the stone, her mouth repeating over and over: "Do you remember me? Young me, under the moonlight, pulling you to talk, we barefooted in the bridge bottom, watching our planted trees growing day by day, my words of love, endless words of love longer than time... Please remember, I once deeply loved you, please believe, we will be together in the end..."

  The last ray of sunset disappeared, Su Jingya stepped barefoot into the rushing sea water, wrapped her clothes tightly around her body, and walked step by step towards the depths of the ocean.

  The icy seawater, little by little overflowed her ankles, her knees, her legs, her waist...

  But she didn't feel cold, tightly wrapped in the shirt that still had his scent on it. Su Jingya's mouth curved up into a brilliant smile as she said: "Huan Huan, if there really is another lifetime, let's switch places, okay? I'll be Huan Huan and you can be Le Le. But I definitely won't let Le Le get hurt again!"

  "Huan Huan, do you still remember what you said to me before? You said... that this lifetime will be with me, and I won't feel lonely or scared again. Actually... you didn't break your promise!" Su Jingya cried, wrapping her arms tightly around herself, wailing, "Look, you're clearly by my side, I can still smell your scent, still feel the warmth of your body, just like when we were kids."

  "Huan Huan, it feels great having you by my side, Le Le is no longer afraid of anything, even death!"

  "Goodbye, until next life... we'll definitely meet again, right?"

  "Huan Huan, you said that as long as you love me, no matter how great the danger I face, you will come to rescue me. Will you come to rescue me now? Will you? " Su Jingya smiled softly and slowly turned around, looking at the empty coastline. She laughed and cried, "You won't come because you've fallen in love with someone else and want me to disappear... If I really disappear, will you miss me? Will you feel that there was a moment when you loved me?"

  Su Jingya closed her eyes, her body tilted backwards, and with a "thud" she fell into the sea. She closed her eyes, not struggling or breathing, letting the waves hit her. As she quietly sank into the ocean, she quietly reminisced, and quietly waited for death...

  And the big stone she had just sat on was lying there alone, with a pair of slippers beside it, and a sentence she left behind: Your heart is where I want to stay even if I go to the end of the earth...

  PS: How did I unknowingly abuse the female lead again? Wuuu... The little demon is crying miserably. However, starting tomorrow, I'll be writing about the female lead's true identity being revealed, and the day after that, I estimate I'll slightly abuse the male lead.

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